Deep Calls Out to Deep
By-Crickettt
Psalm 42:1-11 (NIV)
1 As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food day and night, while people say to me all day long,
“Where is your God?”
4 These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go to the house of God
under the protection of the Mighty One with shouts of joy and praise among the festive throng.
5 Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
6 My soul is downcast within me; therefore, I will remember you from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me.
8 By day the Lord directs His love, at night his song is with me-a prayer to the God of my life.
9 I say to God my Rock, “Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning,
oppressed by the enemy?”
10 My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long,
“Where is your God?”
11 Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
I wake up to a new day, thanking God for allowing me to breathe one more time and feel His presence all around me. I tell myself it's gonna be a good day and I will wait on the Lord for all He has for me during this new day. I quote a favorite scripture that says, "This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it. " Moment by moment the hours tick away, and I feel as though nothing could possibly pull me down today. However, the devil like a roaring lion is lurking also in the midst waiting for the right moment to attack. He knows my weaknesses and he laughs at the thought of using someone to come in and steal every ounce of Joy I have. Once again, he catches me off guard. I have been worshiping God in my heart and thoughts. I always talk to Him about what's going on around me. I have been going through a lot of difficult trials lately and asking a lot of questions. "How much more can I possibly take Lord?" and "Why is this happening to me?" Then suddenly it happens, and I am not prepared. Someone I love and trust angers me or lashes out at me while they're in a bad mood. Satan uses them to needlessly say something to hurt me without any apologies. I walk away in disbelief and frustration. "Here we go again", I said. A dark cloud has just covered my heart and the rain of tears begin to flow. There has been so much junk happening lately all at once for several months and I feel helpless inside with no answers to bring me peace. How in the world did it all get like this? It almost seems as though the waves of life are crashing all around me and my small life boat is sinking beneath it. One difficult moment after another keeps coming harder and harder at me with no end in sight.
I fall to my knees in my closet, the only dark, quiet place I have to escape the noise and confusion around me so I can call out to God for help. "Are you there, God?" "Do you hear me crying and begging for a break from all this pain?" "Have I done something wrong to bring all this grief upon myself?" "I am here, waiting on You to lift up my broken spirit and put all the pieces back together again." Then, I just sit there in the dark so lonely and frustrated just wanting a miracle. I tell God how sorry I am for being so weak and not standing up for myself against these attacks. He knows my heart and everything about me already. He knows I love Him so much and I trust Him with my heart and soul. I know God will never leave or abandon me. He says in His Word, “Be still and know that I am God” and “Cast all your cares upon Me for I care for you”. Those words have always comforted me through the years.
I know God is here all the time and loving me for who I am. I do not have to do anything to impress Him or act like someone I'm not. He loves everything about me. After all, He did knit me together in my mother's womb and called me by name before I was even born. He knows my every thought and actions. I can't hide anything from Him. And through it all, His love never changes. It remains the same always for us all.
I guess there are just those days when I wonder why it has to be this way. Then, I am reminded in His Word that there is an enemy lurking about trying to create as much chaos in our lives to break us down and pull us apart. The devil knows the more pressure he puts upon us, we will become distracted from God and what the promises in His Word says over us and about us. God says, even when wave after wave crashes in on us, His love still washes over us to fill our hearts and minds with love and strength. There is no possible way I could ever attempt to walk through one day alone without God standing beside me and guiding my every step. As I continue to talk to Him each and every day, I am finding that He is not only my Father but also my greatest friend. I can share my joys and my sorrows with Him and He sweetly listens without chastising me for the way I feel. He fills my life with joy and turns my mourning into dancing. I am alive and free in the comfort of His loving arms. Nothing can touch me or separate me from His love.
Finally, after calming down and thinking it all through, I return to what I know is real and what I carry inside of me every day, His Word and His Peace which surpasses all understanding. He is all I need and the air I breathe. I am made whole again and able to set the devil in his place by speaking the Truth of His Word over my day and circumstances.
For now, I have found the strength to get through this day and I do realize tomorrow will have troubles of its own. God does not want me to worry about tomorrow. Instead, I will pray once again and ask God to give me His Grace for the moment to walk in His plan for my life. No matter what the next day may hold, God is still faithful and will continue to lift me up and remind me that I belong to Him. That truly makes waking up and taking a new breath well worth it! "As deep calls out to deep, your waves of love O Lord continually wash over me and for that Father, I am truly grateful". Everything else I experience today will slowly fade away and joy will return once again. Even if that joy is for only a short period, I will become stronger by walking through the deep waters.
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