Father in Heaven, my only Hope and true Joy, I meet with You at this moment in history when the world has literally seemed to turn upside-down and inside-out. Very little makes sense any more, my LORD, my King. For brief moments, some of us on Your planet receive a momentary reprieve from the evil intentions vomited out upon us by those who have chosen to listen to and follow the father of lies, just as Eve and Adam did in the garden where You, their creator, actually walked amongst them. Others have been given no reprieve. Their moments are filled with anxious uncertainty.
As one who still dwells in the land of the living, I often wonder how I would have responded in those moments of deception. Sometimes my heart cries out to see You as they initially saw and knew You. In their nakedness of body and spirit, they walked with You, totally unashamed. The confidence and trust they must have had with You, my little soul just can hardly fathom. But then one day it happened (or was it already brewing in the souls of Your creation, hiding somewhere in their discontented hearts), a chord was struck, and a different song rose up within them, a song of defiance.
So what were they missing, Adonai? How does perfection become flawed? How does a soul that was so familiar with the powerfully peaceful and sovereign voice of the One who hovered over them as He had hovered over the waters, when the earth was without form and void, darkness covering its face, choose the seductive whispers of that shadowed stench of a 'thing' that settled about them like fowl scum on a stagnant pond?
How could they walk away? And why did they disobey the One whose very breath filled their fragile lungs?
I ask these things knowing full well that I too have slipped and staggered over my own two feet. Clinging to words from the scriptures, the words that have been penned by those whom You chose to pen them, I listen for Your voice. Only You know, oh Holy One, set-apart from all things void of light, how longingly I desire to hear it, that voice that splits the darkness much like the large Hadron Collider smashing atoms.
I long for my ears to actually hear You, not to just hear or read about You. And so I cry out, with the many who call You LORD, for HELP! And I wait .. and I listen .. and I speak with You - hoping to finally hear Your voice clearly, unobstructed by the rattling, repetitive and obnoxious noise of this world.
Turn your ears to me now, my Father. I have need of your counsel. My soul is weighed down, and my heart aches and cannot be quieted. Show mercy to Your child who cannot shake the visions of her tormented sisters and brothers from her mind. Hear me and answer.
My heart is sick with grief for my brothers and sisters who are, at this very moment, being terrorized, tortured and murdered by those who have chosen to listen to the great liar. Oh Mighty God, I know You hear their screams and cries of anguish and fear. How could You not hear them. I, a mere nobody, hear them by way of words written and spoken through wave lengths that somehow come alive on this computerized tool. You hear their precious cries for help from the throne of Your heavens, Your Shamayim. Their blood cries out to You from the earth You created. How long, Oh LORD must this horror continue? How long must the earth cradle the blood of Your children. Why are so few on tbis terra firma listening and rushing to their rescue? Why are they lying and distorting (and simply ignoring) the truth. We have watched with tear drenched faces as Your chosen seed has once again been barbarically massacred in these past few years, but just when we gasp for another breath of air, the horrendous cycle of murderous acts of genocide continue. The hellish acts of barbarism against Your gentile adoptees in Syria, the Congo, China, the Korea's, European nations and around the world slices through peace like the sword through the neck of YOUR recently beheaded children in the Congo.
Oh, Abraham, the repercussions of your disobedience against YHWH, through Ishmael, have resulted in a deafening blow against the entire world. Look and see, Abraham, nation rising against nation, and peoples against peoples. As Eve enticed Adam into disobedience, so Sarah enticed you, Abraham. Where you once stood in Faith and trust in the One true God, clearly hearing His voice, even to the point of offering your own son on the altar of sacrifice as He instructed, you bowed instead to your wife's doubt and deception. A few thousand years later, and that seed continues, as Ishmael's "great nation" rises even greater in its struggles against the seed of your promised son, Isaac, and against YHWH's gentile nations who have chosen the Way of His only beloved Son.
So Abraham said to God, “May Ishmael live under your special blessing!”
But God replied, “No—Sarah, your wife, will give birth to a son for you. You will name him Isaac, and I will confirm my covenant with him and his descendants as an everlasting covenant. As for Ishmael, I will bless him also, just as you have asked. I will make him extremely fruitful and multiply his descendants. He will become the father of twelve princes, and I will make him a great nation. But my covenant will be confirmed with Isaac, who will be born to you and Sarah about this time next year.” When God had finished speaking, he left Abraham.
Genesis 17:18-22 NLT
But it doesn't stop there.
Rampant evil continues to fatally torture innocent babies in the womb, and it continues to destroy Your image, YHWH, by viciously ravaging, raping and murdering the offspring of Eve - her precious girls and women. For thousands of years You have watched these atrocities - thousands of years, oh YHWH.
So now what, Father YHWH? It feels so hopelessly helpless to watch these precious souls who have entrusted their lives and the lives of their dear family members to You, being inhumanely slaughtered like pigs. And for what?
To serve their false gods?
Is this the 'silence of God' that many speak of? Is there no reprieve for those being unrighteously persecuted all over this world .. for their faith in You, Adonai?
Why will You not finally end this? Why wait for another maddened and unhinged antichrist to rule over the people (the ultimate nefarious fool waiting in the corridors of time) just to continue this insanity? How much more blood will scream out to You before You say "ENOUGH!!"
I, like many who have chosen to follow You through Your Son, Yeshua (Jesus) have studied Your scriptures and the gospels of Your Son. We know the end of the story, and how an eternity with or without You awaits us all, but why? Why did this have to happen in the first place? Why create such magnificently adorned humanity, in all of its unique characturistic beauty, knowing it all comes down to this moment of choosing?
Of choosing Life or death.
As a mortal being, who feels deeply beyond the words and the satire and the scenarios of life as we know it in the flesh, I can't help but wonder why You, the most splendidly majestic celestial being imaginable, who created the most unimaginable creations on earth and in the heavens, through Your only beloved Son, Yeshua (Jesus), would allow that creation to be ravaged by the most devious and evil being that has ever existed - the satan. I absolutely know that You could bring this to a close, Abba Father, and end this suffering and pain. I know what Your Son said about us having tribulations in this world, and that He has overcome the world, but I just don't understand why Moloch and Ba'al and Ishtar and the many other false and devised gods are allowed to continue their destruction of Your children.
I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33 ESV
This is so disheartening, sickening, disturbing, depressing and disparaging.
I feel their torment and grief in my body!
You are God, YHWH Elohim;
I am Not
You give
You take
Bless Your Name
That is all that is left to be felt, in this flesh.
Please, please HELP us ALL
And quickly.
I have heard many say:
"pray the scriptures"
I do that, and will do that even now; however, I am pleading my gut!
I wring it inside-out and outside-in! And I won't stop until I take the last of my borrowed breath from Your own.
H.E.L.P.!!
For their/our precious sake ... HELP!
In the Name above all names
Yeshua HaMashiach
(Jesus The Messiah)
